July 30, 2005

Midnight Monologue of My Muddled Mind

Welcome to another exert in the life of Zach, and tonight's host is...... ZACH!

Thank you, Thank you..

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Well.. I saw my shrink yesterday.. It went pretty well I think. I had lots on my mind, so it was good to get it off my chest.. For those who were uplate, I had contemplated not going, worrying myself until 5am.. But I did go.. And it was good. I felt good. I didn't tear for once, which made me feel good at the time, but awkward later on that night.. Don't know why.

On the way home, I was treated to a delicious cheese-and-bacon roll, and a Mocha. I love Mocha.. (Curses the fact that he doesn't have one right now).

I have a worry at the moment however, saying it to get off my chest. At night, I've noticed, I just get really bad and its when I start to worry. Worrying leads to more worrying, which usually keeps me awake until much later in the night.. It's annoying, a habit I would rather do without.

I've been having a real creative spark lately..  I don't know.. Just randomly mumbling out random lyrics to a combination of tunes I mix together in my head.. Also started to listen to old favourite composititions of mine, like the Final Fantasy VIII intro {Latin} and Final Fantasy VII Battle Theme performed by a Syphany of some sort.. Here's a random slow song I made up last night;

Walk Away... Never shed a single tear..
Turn awayyy... Let your pain be free tonight.
No matter what may aile you, I'm your shining star
Let me be your light in the darkness of your night
As your dayss do go on.. and your memories fade away
let me be the spark that reminds you who you are,
I'm yourr shinin' star

Yeah, I know it's weird and cheesy. But meh, I like it.

Something I'd really be interested in doing is practicing with some sort of martial art.. Nothing bare fisted; like Karate or Tae Kwon Doe; but I'd like to do something using Wooden Swords.. Swordsmanship if you will.. I just feel like swinging a sword, and I'd rather do it in a trained situation then by swinging around a big stick.. I really think I would be interested in this.. *shrug*.

Anyway.. I think that's all I can think of for now, Signin' Out.. Zach.. :)
Posted by Stormz at 00:33:25 | Permanent Link | Comments (5) |
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1 - i really do think, because you've been through so much, that you'd be a great song writer/singer. u are very creative also. just don't think about the worrying, ami-chan and i will help u work it out. and you should try sword fighting, it's fun. i use actual chinese fighting sticks, well, i will soon and ami-chan will use fighting fans. it really is a fun hobby though. (Comment this)

Written by: Heleta at 2005/07/29 - 17:03:04
2 - weeeeeeelllll, from the songs and poems and stuff u've told me, i'll have to agree with Heleta, u'll make a good writer. and even though it is a weird hobby to collect weapons, it is really really fun. *can c Zach chasing Josh around with wooden sword when josh wants the computer but Zach doesn't wanna give it to him* hehehe, good luck Zach. (Comment this)

Written by: Ami at 2005/07/29 - 17:24:51
3 - There's a few places in perth that offer weapons training. I know one for sure that can train you in nunchucks(Because Ninja are awesome), probably quarterstaff and bokken as well. I don't know if it's too close to where you live

Seriously, we should get this happening. T'would be awesome. There's a whole slew of other crap that we can do, related along the same lines.

On the poems and songs: If you haven't already, get a boook or something and write them down. Keep them. They're pretty damn good. (Comment this)

Written by: Daniel at 2005/07/29 - 18:04:26
4 - Zac, Liam was at one point interested in learning japanese swordfighting and even found a dojo for it. However this was a couple of months ago but you should ask him if he still has it. (Comment this)

Written by: Gareth at 2005/07/30 - 14:14:00
5 - Hey, you should get the song "Total eclipse of the heart" by Nikki French. It's an absoluty sissy cheesy song, but it makes me laugh. It probably isn't meant to be funny... but it is to me. (Comment this)

Written by: Cameron at 2005/08/02 - 07:37:46
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