Stormz' Life; Chapter Four, The Vampiric Mistake.
Thought I'd do another Journal Entry.
Well, since you last saw me, I have TOTALLY messed up my sleep pattern. For the last week or so, it's been a horrible 4pm-6am awakiness. I sleep during the day, but don't really get any rest. Most of the time I'm just lying in bed doing nothing..
Hopefully I'll be able to fix it in the next couple of days; I woke up at about 12am this morning which is quite a large start.
Now.. Once again, I chickened out on going out again yesterday. All week I was saying, "Must go, Must go!" but alas, Saturday rolled round and I had stayed up all night totally messing myself up. Daniel called me a lazy hobo, and continued to when he got back. I know in a way he was just playing, but he's right. Not really sure if he understands how I feel though.. I really hate this agoraphobia.
Continuing; I realised last night how much it's really affecting me. The only times that I really leave the house are to;
a) Walk to the shop
b) Drive to the shop with mum
c) See my Doctor.
I continued to think that a) and b) are really only because I feel guilty that mum would have to do it by herself.. My guilt is probably the only thing getting me outside on occasion.. I think if it were not for this guilt; I would just.. never leave the house..
This makes me pretty darn sad =(. I miss going out and having fun sooo much.. I just have stupid panic attack things in my mind and I end up just going to hide in my room..
Last week;
Repairman came over; I hid in room.
Repairman came over again; I hid in my room.
Cleaner supposed to come; I hid in my room anyway.
So as you can see, I'm getting pretty anti-social as well.
Another thing that sucks is that when Josh wakes up he just kicks me off the computer automatically. It's really annoying that as soon as I get off the computer, I have this complete feeling of just absolute boredom. On Tuesday (?) Josh was to go on from 8.30pm-10.30pm., followed by Nat going on from 10.30pm - ??.??am.
Seeing how bored I was going to be, I litterally just lay in bed for those hours, doing nothing.
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A silly attempt at a manga face. Oh well. :P
Well.. I think that's all I've got on my mind at the moment.. So yeah, off to play Ultima Online now. Cya.
Well, since you last saw me, I have TOTALLY messed up my sleep pattern. For the last week or so, it's been a horrible 4pm-6am awakiness. I sleep during the day, but don't really get any rest. Most of the time I'm just lying in bed doing nothing..
Hopefully I'll be able to fix it in the next couple of days; I woke up at about 12am this morning which is quite a large start.
Now.. Once again, I chickened out on going out again yesterday. All week I was saying, "Must go, Must go!" but alas, Saturday rolled round and I had stayed up all night totally messing myself up. Daniel called me a lazy hobo, and continued to when he got back. I know in a way he was just playing, but he's right. Not really sure if he understands how I feel though.. I really hate this agoraphobia.
Continuing; I realised last night how much it's really affecting me. The only times that I really leave the house are to;
a) Walk to the shop
b) Drive to the shop with mum
c) See my Doctor.
I continued to think that a) and b) are really only because I feel guilty that mum would have to do it by herself.. My guilt is probably the only thing getting me outside on occasion.. I think if it were not for this guilt; I would just.. never leave the house..
This makes me pretty darn sad =(. I miss going out and having fun sooo much.. I just have stupid panic attack things in my mind and I end up just going to hide in my room..
Last week;
Repairman came over; I hid in room.
Repairman came over again; I hid in my room.
Cleaner supposed to come; I hid in my room anyway.
So as you can see, I'm getting pretty anti-social as well.
Another thing that sucks is that when Josh wakes up he just kicks me off the computer automatically. It's really annoying that as soon as I get off the computer, I have this complete feeling of just absolute boredom. On Tuesday (?) Josh was to go on from 8.30pm-10.30pm., followed by Nat going on from 10.30pm - ??.??am.
Seeing how bored I was going to be, I litterally just lay in bed for those hours, doing nothing.
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| \\// \\ _/ \\
/ /,/\\,\\ \\ \\
\\ /\\ /\\ / \\
/ \\' '/ \\ ''''''
\\ _' /
\\ /
^^^^
A silly attempt at a manga face. Oh well. :P
Well.. I think that's all I've got on my mind at the moment.. So yeah, off to play Ultima Online now. Cya.
hope your feeling ok.
your gonna be FINE!!
Lotsa love, Sarah.
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