Stormz Life; Chapter 6, Nothing...?
Well, I have just about nothing to talk about.. But, ya know, that comes from doing nothing all day.. Everyday.. *sigh*. :(.
Mums starting to get annoyed at me so often for being on the computer so much.. It's completely true, I am.. It's just.. Sometimes you just wake up (even while awake) and I just realise how crap my life is.. It makes me just feel so depressed.. So unhappy.. Usually the feeling won't go away unless I immerse myself in something exciting and interactive (currently only the computer at the moment) or I go sleep.. I suppose I just see the computer as just a way to escape my everyday life, a way to escape how crap it truly is.. In the same way that people may use books per say.
I had another horrible dream last night.. I had a cat with me at all times for some reason.. I know the cat was mine because I loved it a LOT.. For some reason the locations seemed to be ever changing.. The city.. The School.. And a couple of places I didn't recognize.. Then suddenly I was at some place going across a thin plank that was over some water with a bunch of other people.. When I got to the other side *many tripped* somebody told me my cat had died.. I raced to her *I just know it was a her, Karma or Kit Kat?* and it was true.. I suddenly cried and cried and cried and felt a great feeling of loss (I still feel it now)
Suddenly, perhaps a different dream, I was in this science lab in a Hogwarts-type place. There was this guy trying to get some formula, I was doing all I could to stop it.. I waited on the stairs near the laboratory with all lights off, and suddenly heard the door of the lab.. I couldn't stop him, I ran to tell some adult, and the dream ended..
I have this real problem with dreams... When I close my eyes, or if somehow everything goes dark.. I can't see again.. I can't open my eyes, everything is blurry and it's just horrible.. I feel incredibly blind sometimes in my dreams.
I also can't focus.. I imagine a person running around a tree for example, but can't make him stop. When I try to stop him, he runs faster and faster.. Apply that to anything, it'll be the same.. Like going down the stairs, if I want him to go slowly, he'll go fast. If I want him to go fast, he'll go fast.
Mums starting to get annoyed at me so often for being on the computer so much.. It's completely true, I am.. It's just.. Sometimes you just wake up (even while awake) and I just realise how crap my life is.. It makes me just feel so depressed.. So unhappy.. Usually the feeling won't go away unless I immerse myself in something exciting and interactive (currently only the computer at the moment) or I go sleep.. I suppose I just see the computer as just a way to escape my everyday life, a way to escape how crap it truly is.. In the same way that people may use books per say.
I had another horrible dream last night.. I had a cat with me at all times for some reason.. I know the cat was mine because I loved it a LOT.. For some reason the locations seemed to be ever changing.. The city.. The School.. And a couple of places I didn't recognize.. Then suddenly I was at some place going across a thin plank that was over some water with a bunch of other people.. When I got to the other side *many tripped* somebody told me my cat had died.. I raced to her *I just know it was a her, Karma or Kit Kat?* and it was true.. I suddenly cried and cried and cried and felt a great feeling of loss (I still feel it now)
Suddenly, perhaps a different dream, I was in this science lab in a Hogwarts-type place. There was this guy trying to get some formula, I was doing all I could to stop it.. I waited on the stairs near the laboratory with all lights off, and suddenly heard the door of the lab.. I couldn't stop him, I ran to tell some adult, and the dream ended..
I have this real problem with dreams... When I close my eyes, or if somehow everything goes dark.. I can't see again.. I can't open my eyes, everything is blurry and it's just horrible.. I feel incredibly blind sometimes in my dreams.
I also can't focus.. I imagine a person running around a tree for example, but can't make him stop. When I try to stop him, he runs faster and faster.. Apply that to anything, it'll be the same.. Like going down the stairs, if I want him to go slowly, he'll go fast. If I want him to go fast, he'll go fast.
i had a dream that a dog peed on my head...what does that say? (Comment this)
And then thismorning i had a dream that i was at some sort of camp like affair with someone i met at TAFE and we randomly hooked up with a couple of guys there, niether of whom i actually know.
odd much??? (Comment this)
i guess i'm just bored.
oh, well. we can be bored together...heheheh.
adios. (Comment this)
I can make it stop now though =) (Comment this)